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jeepsxr4xgirls:

#buddha #quotes #karma
Dec 21

jeepsxr4xgirls:

#buddha #quotes #karma

jjac-que-line:


his pledge to her:i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar.  i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle, i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger. and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling. sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.



So cute!
Dec 6

jjac-que-line:

his pledge to her:
i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar.  i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle, i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger. and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling. sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.

So cute!

(via petitesenpai)

Nov 24

aedrie:

Muah

(Source: ae-olee)

YES
Nov 24

YES

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saberktz:

I always needed time on my ownI never thought I’d need you there when I cryAnd the days feel like years when I’m aloneAnd the bed where you lie is made up on your sideWhen you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now?When you’re goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youWhen you’re goneThe face I came to know is missing tooWhen you’re goneThe words I need to hear to always get me throughThe day and make it ok
I’ve never felt this way beforeEverything that I do reminds me of youAnd the clothes you left, they lie on the floorAnd they smell just like you, I love the things that you doWhen you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now?When you’re goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youAnd when you’re goneThe face I came to know is missing tooAnd when you’re goneThe words I need to hear to always get me through day and make it ok
I miss you.
Nov 24

saberktz:

I always needed time on my ownI never thought I’d need you there when I cryAnd the days feel like years when I’m aloneAnd the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now?
When you’re goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youWhen you’re goneThe face I came to know is missing too
When you’re goneThe words I need to hear to always get me throughThe day and make it ok

I’ve never felt this way beforeEverything that I do reminds me of youAnd the clothes you left, they lie on the floorAnd they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now?
When you’re goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youAnd when you’re goneThe face I came to know is missing too
And when you’re goneThe words I need to hear to always get me through day and make it ok

I miss you.

Because Everyone needs a good laugh 
Nov 24

Because Everyone needs a good laugh 

(Source: allythewoo)

CHILDREN.
I want kids so bad. I can’t wait till I can have babies and can be a mommy<3
Nov 24

CHILDREN.

I want kids so bad. I can’t wait till I can have babies and can be a mommy<3

(Source: wbpgrandpoobah)

RECOVERY/STARVE.
"I want to see you back in a few weeks. When you come back, if you haven&#8217;t put on at least 5 pounds then I&#8217;m going to have to recommend you go to another clinic." I took the supplement bars and walked out the door with my mom a little confused. I had had a few black out incidents and didn&#8217;t see how this was related to my weight. Yeah, I was skinny, and very happy with myself. But i didn&#8217;t try. I never had an appetite so i never ate and it wasn&#8217;t like i was making myself throw up. no harm done right? when i was hungry i ate plenty!  
  A few years later i started taking antidepressants which caused me to gain 40 pounds over the course of one year. Goodbye to my 100 pound little body&#8230;. I went from a size 0 to a size 10 and had stretch marks to prove it. I felt disgusted every time i looked in the mirror and hated myself. I looked ugly, I was FAT. I lived with it awhile, shopped for bigger clothes, tried to eat a little healthier, exercise a little and do small things to try and help but none of it changed my weight. 
  One day, after a meal i had eaten, i decided to go throw up. I thought it was a habit i should try to develop to help myself loose some weight. But throwing up was only so good. Eventually i started starving myself all together. It was better for me to just stop eating all together and it was more effective. I was able to lose 10 pounds in two weeks by not eating and with the help of the drug topomax. Topomax takes away hunger and has helped me be able to go days without eating.  I don&#8217;t enjoy feeling weak, exhausted and like i&#8217;m about to black out again but i do enjoy feeling thinner. Ultimately it&#8217;s that i am so unhappy with myself and that i feel so out of control of my life and that&#8217;s why i starve myself- to take back some control and in hopes to be somewhat happier with myself. but then i fear, that after i lose the weight, i&#8217;m still not going to be happy with myself and i&#8217;m still not going to be pretty enough, and then what will i do?
  Today i learned i&#8217;m going to have to stop taking Topomax because my skin is having an allergic reaction to it and this kind of made me freak out. What am i going to do with out the help of this drug? how will i keep starving myself? are the questions i asked myself. It will make it harder to starve because i&#8217;ll have a little more of an appetite without the topomax.
  This ED is part of what landed me in the hospital last month and i&#8217;m still trying to recover. it&#8217;s really hard to even want to stop when i still see myself as fat and ugly. Why is it that we always want the body that we cant have? 
Nov 24

RECOVERY/STARVE.

"I want to see you back in a few weeks. When you come back, if you haven’t put on at least 5 pounds then I’m going to have to recommend you go to another clinic." I took the supplement bars and walked out the door with my mom a little confused. I had had a few black out incidents and didn’t see how this was related to my weight. Yeah, I was skinny, and very happy with myself. But i didn’t try. I never had an appetite so i never ate and it wasn’t like i was making myself throw up. no harm done right? when i was hungry i ate plenty!  

  A few years later i started taking antidepressants which caused me to gain 40 pounds over the course of one year. Goodbye to my 100 pound little body…. I went from a size 0 to a size 10 and had stretch marks to prove it. I felt disgusted every time i looked in the mirror and hated myself. I looked ugly, I was FAT. I lived with it awhile, shopped for bigger clothes, tried to eat a little healthier, exercise a little and do small things to try and help but none of it changed my weight. 

  One day, after a meal i had eaten, i decided to go throw up. I thought it was a habit i should try to develop to help myself loose some weight. But throwing up was only so good. Eventually i started starving myself all together. It was better for me to just stop eating all together and it was more effective. I was able to lose 10 pounds in two weeks by not eating and with the help of the drug topomax. Topomax takes away hunger and has helped me be able to go days without eating.  I don’t enjoy feeling weak, exhausted and like i’m about to black out again but i do enjoy feeling thinner. Ultimately it’s that i am so unhappy with myself and that i feel so out of control of my life and that’s why i starve myself- to take back some control and in hopes to be somewhat happier with myself. but then i fear, that after i lose the weight, i’m still not going to be happy with myself and i’m still not going to be pretty enough, and then what will i do?

  Today i learned i’m going to have to stop taking Topomax because my skin is having an allergic reaction to it and this kind of made me freak out. What am i going to do with out the help of this drug? how will i keep starving myself? are the questions i asked myself. It will make it harder to starve because i’ll have a little more of an appetite without the topomax.

  This ED is part of what landed me in the hospital last month and i’m still trying to recover. it’s really hard to even want to stop when i still see myself as fat and ugly. Why is it that we always want the body that we cant have? 

(Source: sick-of-people-shit)

enkindleme:

Happy Thanksgiving
Nov 22

enkindleme:

Happy Thanksgiving

thirteeflavours:

Happy Thanksgiving Followers! 
 Ilove this picture for Lana Del Rey. Shes Beautiful. Listen to her music if you haven&#8217;t already. Shes stunning. 
 This thanksgiving was hard for me to me be thankful due to my natural tendencies to pull the negative out of everything. Every thanksgiving is hard for me it seems. But everyday has it joys and has its pleasant moments and today i counted them up. I&#8217;m thankful for pinterest. Thanks to pinterest, i have planned my house,kids and wedding that i may or may not ever have but either way it entertained me a good part of the night. I&#8217;m thankful for my great family that loves me, always has provided for me and puts up with me and deals with me when i&#8217;m at my worst which has been a lot recently. I take that for granted all too often and this weekend am going to simply say thank you to them for all that they do. 
  I chose the picture for 2 reasons. A) Lana Del Rey and B) the mixerssss (interracial couple. My boyfriend is black) I&#8217;m so thankful for him and shout out to him and all the boyfriends out there who work over time for there girl. He loves me well and makes me smile everyday which is really important to me. Even more important, he has loved me at my worst and still been there for me and been patient with me even when i didn&#8217;t deserve it and i don&#8217;t know how he did it! Lately I have been a complete disaster and he has really helped me keep my head together and been there for me when all i could do was cry. He&#8217;s my man. Since we met and have been together,we  have ran into a little trouble with family since he is dating &#8220;a little white girl&#8221;.  My family has been pretty accepting though and that&#8217;s one more thing to be very grateful for. He thanks me about once a week for being his girlfriend which i think is really cute and makes me smile. So, now its my turn to thank him!  Looks like i have a lot of people to thank this weekend for the impact they have in my life. Happy thanksgiving! 
Nov 22

thirteeflavours:

Happy Thanksgiving Followers! 

 Ilove this picture for Lana Del Rey. Shes Beautiful. Listen to her music if you haven’t already. Shes stunning. 

 This thanksgiving was hard for me to me be thankful due to my natural tendencies to pull the negative out of everything. Every thanksgiving is hard for me it seems. But everyday has it joys and has its pleasant moments and today i counted them up. I’m thankful for pinterest. Thanks to pinterest, i have planned my house,kids and wedding that i may or may not ever have but either way it entertained me a good part of the night. I’m thankful for my great family that loves me, always has provided for me and puts up with me and deals with me when i’m at my worst which has been a lot recently. I take that for granted all too often and this weekend am going to simply say thank you to them for all that they do. 

  I chose the picture for 2 reasons. A) Lana Del Rey and B) the mixerssss (interracial couple. My boyfriend is black) I’m so thankful for him and shout out to him and all the boyfriends out there who work over time for there girl. He loves me well and makes me smile everyday which is really important to me. Even more important, he has loved me at my worst and still been there for me and been patient with me even when i didn’t deserve it and i don’t know how he did it! Lately I have been a complete disaster and he has really helped me keep my head together and been there for me when all i could do was cry. He’s my man. Since we met and have been together,we  have ran into a little trouble with family since he is dating “a little white girl”.  My family has been pretty accepting though and that’s one more thing to be very grateful for. He thanks me about once a week for being his girlfriend which i think is really cute and makes me smile. So, now its my turn to thank him!  Looks like i have a lot of people to thank this weekend for the impact they have in my life. Happy thanksgiving!